if it was my last day

 If it was the last day of my life. 

Please forgive me for what I had done.

Before I wrote this I had forgiven all of you for what you had done. 

It was hard to accept honestly and I dont know how to explain it. 

Please don't ask me over my grave. 

If it was my last day.

I just want to be alone with my mind, 

together with a pen and paper. 

I want to write all of it. 

If it was my last day.

I want to sit under a tree without anyone disturbing me. 

Maybe just smile at me if you see me so that I can remember them in my next life. 

Write to me, place it in a bottle maybe a miracle could make me read it. 

If it was my last day to live. 

Tell me that you love me with your eyes,

so I could dive one last time into your soul until it was my last breath.

All I am thirsty for all this while is some connection. 

If it was my last day to live. 

All I need is just to feel my heart.

To feel at peace with myself and smile until I see Him.

A monster and a girl

 A cool wind blew softly.

I saw leaves flying through my window.

It was a sunny and bright.

A day with a gold sight 

When was the last time my heart was soft?

Although my mind always went aloft.

I'm not letting myself becomes a monster.

Although I am, I always wanted to walk besides her.

Her inner beauty, a masterpiece, an art!

A girl with the purest heart!

And here I am always standing close on.

With a foul heart.

Longing to learn the secret of the heart.

But how?

Why?

What?

Where do I start?

As I feel hopeless without answers...

"not all things have answers", said the girl.

You just have to feel it here, 

As she touch my chest I could feel my heart getting warmer and warmer.

No words can describe the touch of your heart.

 

To My Only Heart

 You are always there defending me against my own destruction.

If only I know your language.

I'm trying to listen to your feelings.

As I do not have feelings.

I only find every solution without involving you. 

Dear heart, 

I'm sorry I am cold.

You're always my warmth when there is no solution.

You're loyal although you're a mess. 

Messy in an organized way. 

 Please feel again.

I miss you, my only heart. 

The moon to my sun. 

My relief when there is no way out. 

My path towards salvation. 

Dear heart, 

please teach me your language. 

You are the saviour to this life.

let us work together. 

We're equal. 

Let us have fun while we're at it okay?