Ashtray

D: aku takkan lama di sini. Tak lama aku akan hilang.
M: tapi aku takut. Tertinggal dalam kegelapan.
D: cahaya tu ada. Jangan gusar.
M: tapi...
D: belajarlah terima. Ok?
M: ...

Nothingness

It's really painful until no tears is left for me to cry it out.
I can never say anything to anyone.
I feel awful.
like i'm gonna puke blood.
I'm a mess.
empty inside like a walking zombie.


I want to live once again.
I'm sorry God.

Forgive me.

Tenteram

Masih aku ingat jemari kamu menyentuh jemari aku.

Sentiasa aku menyembunyikannya. 

I have nothing

If you knew.

I lost everything in my life.

Its like i have no reason to live anymore.

Im sinking and nobody noticed.

Nobody really cared in this world.

I guess this is goodbye.

Forever.

Deep sorrow

I need you so bad that it hurts.

Now i know the feelings.

And i'm very sorry about it.

I hope god punish me enough.

So everyone would not get hurt because of me. 

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for missing you.

Dear self

Dear self,

I know you're hurt.

I know you'd always cry yourself to sleep everynight.

Just be patient ok.

Allah knows whats good for you. 

And i know its not fair.

But trust me. Allah is fair.

Hoca

Kehidupan adalah mahaguru bagi dunia dan akhirat.

Bertapa kau mahukan dunia yang kau tahu tak bisa kau raih.

Salah sama sekali.

Tetapi hidup pasti tetap berjalan.

Walau sakit, kecewa sekalipun.

Biar akal di depan.

Belajarlah si jauhari.