Merriam

I was straying in my head.
It was snowing. cold. freezing.
I saw this women in red evening coat.
and automatically i say in a low tone like a whisper "Merriam...".
She turned and looked at me and i looked at her with my cold eyes.
She looked like Miriam. Smoothly i take her hand and kissed it gently.

"Nice meeting you here Merriam. Long time no see. Not to worry I do not miss you dear".
I gave her a brief smile and she smiled a very sincere smile.

"I know you missed me Merriam but just for a while".

She then hugged me spontaneously. I was confused.
I hugged her back and then I realized I was in my prison.
I'm a prisoner you see. The thing that I hugged just now was a corpse that I kept for all these years.
She was the love of my life, but i killed her not because I don't love her.

It
is
because
I
cared
and
loved
too
much.

I made these prison for myself.
but one day I will smash it down and that day is today.

While i smash and burn it away from my head.

"I am the best, and I will be the best Merriam".

so I let her free as I let myself free from my own prison.
but she was dead.
I gave her a funeral. A good one.
before she was brought down to her grave. I throw beautiful white flower on her coffin.
It was her favourite flower.

Back to reality. I cry my last cry. Hopefully we will meet again Merriam.

We will reunite again.

I promise you.